AAM Poem #1: Unhappy Hands

Clenched fists Flailing wrists Nails dug into fingertips Lip bit Tongue click Knuckles find the bone and hit Hips sway Eyes squeezed Tightened muscles won’t release Palms slammed tightly over ears Darting eyes betray my fears Fears, frustration, anger shows And shows more ever as it grows And then you stare, and then you pout… Continue reading AAM Poem #1: Unhappy Hands

#TakeTheMaskOff Week 2: Unstillness In An Unstill World (Stimming And Its Relation To Masking)

I wrote a fairly extensive post about stimming during Autistic Acceptance Month in April (I apologize for the reminder that April exists…but there are some good things that happen in the autism world during that month, I promise!). “Stimming” is a natural and inevitable bodily response to both the world inside of us and the world… Continue reading #TakeTheMaskOff Week 2: Unstillness In An Unstill World (Stimming And Its Relation To Masking)

Autistic Acceptance Month Day 11: Stims

One of the most beautiful discussions I’ve ever seen on stimming is the YouTube video “In My Own Language” by silentmiaow / Mel Baggs (which is about so much more than stimming; it is also about communication, thought, and personhood). The first 3 minutes and 13 seconds are of Amanda stimming — playing with water, humming,… Continue reading Autistic Acceptance Month Day 11: Stims

Autistic Acceptance Month Day 10: Sensory Life

If there is an internal logic to how my brain decides what sensations are pleasant or unpleasant and to what degree at any given moment, I’ve yet to crack that pattern.  Well, there are some patterns that are consistent enough for me to make generalizations: * A lot of different noises at one time (namely… Continue reading Autistic Acceptance Month Day 10: Sensory Life